For the Recovering Rescuer
Dear twenty-year-old me,
Oh how I want to shake you and rattle you,
wake you up // You're too influenced by others
Speak up!
Why would I say what I really think if it'll just be squashed?
You see, for twelve years I had to ask permission to speak.
Cubicles and flags and star charts and memory verses and uniforms and children's minds silently
buzzing
questioning
swirling.
Just figure out the right answer
The one that will cause the least amount of disruption.
Put on your pretty face and straighten that cross-bow tie and don't forget to mind your elders.
Anyway when I met her that freshman year on that college campus,
I want to put my arm around you and protect you.
I want to whisper to you that you don't need to rescue to be seen.
You see, I was addicted to following the rules and being the good one,
I listened and listened and listened.
I ate and ate and ate until I couldn't any more.
You mean to tell me there's nothing I can do to make Him love me?
(Please let me do something).
I was sick from all the sin-eating.
My body convulsed. (Please listen to your body)
needing to be rescued myself.
How do you do it God?
How do you do it Three-In-One?
Always emptying Yourself for the sake of others.
They reached in and pulled me to the shore.
Come inland for awhile, abide. And the Three-In-One
gave me rest.
But what about her?
I was drowning, now I see.
They pulled us both out.
How much more compassion the Three-In-One has!
How much more They have for me,
and how much more They have for her.
And now a poem by David Tensen.
The Burden Bearer - Piece 2
Somewhere
early in life
you discovered
that you had
the capacity
and compassion
to carry
burdens
and blows.
So, all
that came
towards you
from the world
and those in it
that had
nowhere to land,
you absorbed
and made room for.
You held
it all
in yourself.
All the pain
and promises.
All the chaos
and care.
All the shame
and secrets.
So, body
and bones
and breath
held the
stories
and the score
for favour
and fear.
Then somewhere
about now
you're done.
Finished storing
burden bearing
and over-caring.
Sick and tired
of saving
and sin-eating.
Let go
and make room,
weary one.
The world
is too big
to carry.
Take stock
vacate spaces
that store troubles.
All yours
and theirs
Let
(Inhale)
It
(Exhale)
All
(Inhale)
Go
(Exhale)
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