To Care and Not to Care

She asked me, "And where do you see Jesus as you wrestle with yourself?' In the tears, and the anger, and the fear of losing control I took a deep breath and said, Near me. He's near. I had been wrestling with old versions of myself for a while now. Old versions and the same old message of a legalistic gospel used for personal gain and the improvement of myself. New life was being born in me. Christ's hand was at my back and at my front, all the while holding me firmly here and now. An invitation into servant leadership for the sake of others. I was falling out of old skin used for protection power security affirmation love personal gain And into skin made new. The old ways of how the name of God were used to control me fell by the wayside. And in the wake, my heart batted open and His Spirit said I am here, Take comfort. Rest in me. I have overcome the world. I am doing a new thing. Is he doing a new thing in you too? How beautiful He is making us to be.  The Wrestle